Waiting...

So... I applied for this job, some time back in November and ever since it's tormenting my soul beyond imaginable. I had never before had a panic attack and neither did I think I would have any. Now I have sudden attacks every now and then, all over the day. Who would have guessed, huh? I constantly feel nervious and keep recalling in my mind moments of the interviews (there were 2 interviews): what I did well, and gave them a reason to hire me, and what I did wrong, absolutely ruining my chances to get it. This is so unbearable, for God's sake, why cant I just switch off my brain?

Prologue

Before actually starting to post what I had decided to post, let me put straight some things.

This blog was born out of my love for fashion and impossibility to afford any brand clothes. So, I decided to sew them. Take a garment that I saw somewhere and actually liked and make it with my own hands. Don't ask me about shoes though, it's a real pain in the ass *rolleyes*

Hello, December

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG got my salary today *spend ALL the money* xD Not quite like that but... <:-P
I would say that I love you December, but it is the first day of winter and it's raining in here :| Of course, fuck logic. Why do we need snow in winter, anyway?

Because the weather in absolutely not coresponding to the season even the Christmas spirit doesn't feel. And I'm not exaggerating, it doesn't feel like Christmas coming at all :( It was different last year and the year before last. God knows what's happening, damn weather and crisis and all.

But enough wining, Christmas is coming even if the snow isn't hurrying. And Christmas means presents, tons of food, sweets, oranges and Love Actually :x

Happy December 1st everyone and especially my to good friend whose BDay is today. Yay!

 

 

P.S. Wrote whole 5 posts in November, Mother of God I'm hell of a blogger :>

Random

This is what google shows me when I search for "Mescalito". Pretty appropriate for the moment though.

Reading Dumas in paper book...

Reading Castaneda in electronic book...

Worried as hell for a job application...

Rambling aimlessly through the internet...

Getting hooked on an idea, then loosing it and getting even more depressed...

Can't concentrate on anything lately (last couple of years if to be more precise *meh*).

Still haven't decided what will this blog be about. This is just unacceptable 8-|

Also, found Goodreads *me gusta*

I wish I could take screencaps of my dreams :-<  I had such a nice dream tonight...

I wish I could write longer sentences.

And I think my banner is waaay too big :|

That's all for today, probably.

Dawww, it's my Birthday

Everything is ok and nothing hurts :D

The cake is obviously nicked from Harry. It's only for one day, so he shouldn't be too mad.

The calendar I used to count the days is the schedule of Alan Rickman's performances in Seminar in November. Two performances on my BDay, this is unacceptable. Yay, to the Narnia I live in. :-<

Johnny Cash apperciation post

That awesome moment when you find a new song or artist that you love so much that it gives you goosebumps. Yes, I discovered Johnny Cash :) Actually, I discovered one of his songs first "God's Gonna Cut you Down" (thanks to Cohen brothers, of course) and I can listen it nonstop hundreds of times, I never get tired of it, al least I didn't till now. This is timeless music and therefore it's priceless. This is when you feel your heart beat in the same rhytm that the music you're listening.

I know there are a lot of good and very good artists nowadays and I love some of them, but when I first listened to Johnny I really thought that everything else is literally shit compared to his music. I think there is something about his lyrics and his personality. Something very sincere and straightforward. God give me the proper words, cause I certainly can't find them :) Yes, I accept that it a quite subjective opinion and perhaps it came to me in a moment of absolute elevation or absolute struck, but I love this feeling of awe. It's like you finally discovered something worthy in this world where nothing unexplored had left.

Here are two songs that I love, but I'm quite sure I wont stop here, cause I'm only at the beginning of the road of getting to know and to love Johnny Cash's music.

God's Gonna Cut you Down

And one more sad and absolute hearthbreaking, but nevertheless beautiful.

Ain't No Grave

An awfully big disappointment

Sad me is sad :( because I want so awfully bad to go to Seminar on Broadway and I can't :'(

Sad me is even sadder cause I won't be able to see Alan Rickman's old plays like Les Liasions Dangereuses, or Private Lives, or Hamlet, or Antony and Cleopatra. I just refuse to believe that I will never see him on stage. No, no, no and NO. 

THIS

THIS is what my heart craves for and I can't offer it the comfort of enjoying the acting of one of the finest english actors of our time.

Why do I  live on the other side of this bloody globe and can't go to bloody New York, to see a bloody play, with my bloody favourite actor? Ugh.

High hopes for you, November

Well, November is my month, cause this is the month I was born in. 

And I believe I have the right to welcome it and ask to be nice to me. If everything will be ok, I plan to treat myself a little bit, not only because it's my BD, but also because I want it. Just this simple ))

DIY: Zara TRF Tulip-Skirt Dress

Do It Yourself

     You know that feeling when you see a cloth while surfing the net and want it infinitely much, but can't afford it?? Well, I've got it every time plus the desire to change a little bit here and a little bit there so that it would look perfect on me. And when I saw Zara TRF Tulip-Skirt Dress, I knew I had to make it and I was sure it would fit me perfectly.
     So, I bought some fabric. I needed it to be thin enough to confort me in a summer evening and firm enough to mantain the shape of the dress. I've choosed some gabardine of light creamy shade.
     I made some changes to the original dress, because I find it kind of sporty and I needed it elegant for I intended to wear it at my friend's wedding. I've changed the shape of the neck and lowered the back neckline.
     I have, also, kept the pockets, cause I adore them. All my clothes should have pockets so I can find a place for my hands :)
     It so happened, that the fabric wasn't too firm so I had to use some vlieseline (or fusible fabric).-

The original: Zara TRF Tulip-Skirt Dress

The components of the upper part of the dress

Someone's willing to help :)

Front view

Back view

     I must say that this dress was my pride and glory at the wedding ♥
     This is my first fully finished garment, that I'm totally satisfied with.

     Hopefully it's not the last :D

test

emmm.....I'm not quite sure what i'll write in this blog.....but I'll keep it ))

Since I don't know what a proper first-post-on-a-blog should be, I'll just state that this is the actual Birthday of this blog. What will it be about? Well, nothing and everything......duhh......obviously :D